Today is Valentine's day, it should be a happy day, right? I worked 8am-10pm, and that was only because I asked to be let go so I could get to sleep so I can be back to work tomorrow at 7am. And I was at work until 11pm last night.
So I'm tired, and I think that's why it hit me so hard that no one sent me a text to say Happy Valentine's day except for my Aunt Sally, and I realize I didn't either, but I literally don't have the time. And the last week or so, whenever we get a phone call from the front desk saying there's a package, I hope it's for me, but it's been a giant card for one roommate, Godiva and dove chocolates for another roommate, and then tonight, when I walk in, I am hit with the vision of 2 dozen big beautiful red roses. That aren't for me, obviously. I don't even like roses. But it just hit me that I am alone, and there's no one to even give me a second thought on a special day, even if it is a hallmark holiday. And I'm not saying I am not spoiled on every other occasion by my family----I am. But it's just today for some reason that made me feel sad that no one wanted to make me feel special, when I was making 850 (literally, we did 850 covers today) people feel special.
It is pathetic, but the highlight of my day was getting a tinker bell valentine from a 7 year old girl that I don't even know. I almost cried. I am going to stop feeling sorry for myself now and go to sleep so I don't look like a train wreck tomorrow and start feeling happy for my roommates that did get acknowledged :)
Oh darling! I'm so sorry you had a long, unappreciated day. I love you and miss you very much, and I fail at life because your package is still sitting in my entry way, but I promise promise promise I'll send it soon. I'm a little broke and have also been working doubles and haven't had a spare second to go to the post office. Don't forget how much we all miss and love you here.
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